DS-LOG 0001 — THE ORIGIN OF PROPHETS OF THE COSMIC DARKNESS
ORIGIN
Prophets of the Cosmic Darkness began with a realization that tends to arrive quietly with age: time moves quickly, and creative work shouldn’t remain unfinished. For years I carried the feeling that I had music in me that needed to exist. Eventually that pressure became impossible to ignore.
Music had always been part of my life. I wrote songs long before this project existed. But that creative output stopped for nearly a decade while I was serving in the Navy. During those years music became distant—something that belonged to an earlier chapter of my life.
When I left the Navy, the urge to write returned almost immediately. It didn’t feel like a casual hobby returning. It felt more like something that had been waiting for ten years and suddenly had space again.
Originally, the idea behind the project was very different. My intention was to start a death metal band. That was the sound I had in mind at the beginning. But as I started recording and experimenting, I discovered that composing everything myself worked better for how I think about music. Instead of forming a traditional band, the project slowly evolved into something more personal—one person building the sound, atmosphere, and identity of the music from the ground up.
Around that same period, my life was marked by a difficult moment: the suicide of a friend. Experiences like that change your relationship with time and creativity. After that happened, I began writing with far more urgency. Nights became longer. I spent more time experimenting with synthesizers, learning production tools, and shaping the direction of the music.
Some of those nights were quiet ones in the backyard with my husband. We would sit outside listening to records together. Two artists kept returning to the speakers: Chromatics and Boy Harsher. Their music carried a particular atmosphere—melancholic, hypnotic, and strangely intimate.
Listening to those records compelled me to start writing again. At first, I thought I wanted to sound like them. That was the original goal. But something unexpected happened during the process. The more I tried to chase that sound, the more the music began drifting into its own direction. The melodies, pacing, and themes started forming something distinct.
What began as influence eventually became identity.
Film also played a major role in shaping the atmosphere of the project. The work of Panos Cosmatos had a strong impact on the visual and thematic direction of the music. His films—especially Beyond the Black Rainbow and Mandy—exist in a strange space between science fiction and horror. They move slowly, almost hypnotically, filled with neon lighting, surreal imagery, and moments that feel more like visions than traditional scenes.
I’ve always been drawn to that kind of abstract horror. The kind that doesn’t explain everything. Horror that feels more like a dream or a memory than a conventional narrative.
The name Prophets of the Cosmic Darkness actually traces back to a moment in Mandy. In one scene, the Chemist tells a character, “You exude a cosmic darkness.” That line stuck with me. There was something powerful about it—something that felt vast, mysterious, and strangely poetic.
From that phrase the name began to take shape.
“Cosmic Darkness” captured the tone of the world I wanted the music to inhabit. And “Prophets” became something else entirely: the idea that each record created would add another voice, another signal, another messenger within that darkness. Each album becomes another prophet in that expanding transmission.
In that sense, the name isn’t just a title. It’s a framework for the project itself.
Prophets of the Cosmic Darkness isn’t a traditional band. It’s closer to a signal—something transmitted from long nights of writing, experimentation, reflection, and influence.
And this log is where those records begin.
